I am a 53 year old Single Father of two Boys. (28and 29 years old) I am a Totally Disabled Propmaker/Laborer that spent 21 1/2 years in the Movie and Television Industry.

Where am I at right now. Not to bad off for where I came from. I am going to Marry My Nephew to a very wonderful Woman. Yes somewhere along the way I became a Minister no shit Me. I had to because we are running out of people that can sign for the Tea Ceremony Someone has to attest that the marriage was done right and that everything is wonderful. Remember I am a Buddhist with out Priests. No one to chant for Me except Myself.. That's just the way we are. The sect that I be long to is called SGI-USA. The SGI stands for Soka Gakkai which translated to Valued Creation. We study the Lotus Sutra which is the last Sutra Expounded by the Thus Come One or the original Buddha. The Priest that We follow name is Nichiren Daishonin whom lived in Japan in the middle 1200's to the late 1200's. This is the Most profound sayings He said.Suffer what there is to Suffer, Enjoy what there is to enjoy and except these things as life and Keep Chanting Namu-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

I blew My Back out a little over 16 1/2 years ago on the Job.. I have been in a world of hell ever since. I can not work, which really bothers Me a lot and There is nothing so far that I know of that I can do at Home and make a decent living at or for that fact just a living.

The funny thing is that I am not alone on this path. There are countless others that are in the same place as I am in. Just barely making it while trying to support a family and borrowing money from friends and family just to live. All of this instability is going to be over soon and I will be able to start to work on healing all of the Emotional Scars (More like Badges of Honor that know one will see.) that I have been getting from all of this. I hope that someone that is where I was at in the beginning finds this and knows that there is going to be an end too all this madness and that We have to endure because of an Accident on or off the Job that We did not want in the first place that  makes Our Lives tumble out of control.